by Calven Celliers Earlier this week I went to visit one of our congregants who has been struck with Alzheimer’s and is sadly fading fast. The visit affected me badly, if I’m honest. I sat in disbelief, deeply saddened at the sight before me. A shell of a being where once there was a person so full of fun, life, and talent. Now completely withdrawn and lost to the outside world, totally dependent on others for the most basic of activities. As I drove away, I found myself angry; angry at the situation, dare I say, angry at God for allowing this to happen to one of His own. The "why" question is not a new one; it goes back thousands of years. In one online article that I read as I tried to make sense of this scramble of emotions inside of me, contributing writer, Robert Hampshire commented that – “When we respond to a situation with anger, it shines a light on what we value and consider as right and wrong. On the other hand, if something does not produce any feelings of anger, we can conclude that it is not something we value that much. When a situation turns out differently than we think it should have been, it naturally causes emotional friction in us that comes out as frustration, disappointment, annoyance, and anger. So, if we find ourselves being angry with God, it reveals that we think God was unfair … we need to honestly ask ourselves what beliefs we have about God that are unscriptural, untrue, and unhelpful.” I totally got what Mr Hampshire was saying. When we respond to a situation with anger, it shines a light on what we value and consider as right or wrong. Bingo! I love people, especially my flock, and when bad things happen to good people it makes me angry. It just doesn’t feel right nor fair. The question that remains, however, is this: what beliefs do I have about God, that cause me to feel this way? Who ever said that as believers we would never experience troubles or that we shouldn’t anticipate setbacks in this life? Not God, that’s for sure! In fact, Jesus went so far as to say, “33 I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33NIV) Oftentimes, we focus on what is presented in front of us. And what we see sinks into our minds and works its way into our hearts. As I wrestled with God after that visit, I was once again reminded that these years on earth, while important and are to be used wisely and enjoyed, are preparation for a far greater life to come; life in heaven with God. My end, as Mary Queen of Scots put it, is my beginning. And her end was at the sharp point of an axe. Did God answer my “why” question? No, He didn’t, well…